Random Journal

I got bored today and decided to change up the journel a little bit.. I figured it was time for a new look.

Well I found out this morning the Amanda and J Dizzle are engaged.. Congrats again to them.. I’m so very very happy for them..

Today I went to a different church, as a was walking out, I decided to call Meagan (to see if she was going to church) and To make a long strory short, I went to church with her and her roommates. She goes to Fellowship in the Pass, in Beaumont.. It was a really good sermon. I guess the pastor is going through Psalm 119 piece by piece.. today it was on verses 9-16. and it was basically on keeping the word pure and keeping our words pure… He said a couple of good things like “whatever is in your heart, comes out of the mouth and when your heart is pure, the mouth will be also”.. This isn’t new to me but it got me because a lot of the time my words aren’t glorifying to God. He also talked about meditation on the word, which is something I hardly ever do! Yeah, I felt pretty darn convicted today! After church we went to the pastors house for lunch.. I know that sounds kind of weird, because it was my first time going there (I had gone there once before a long time ago), but the pastor has two daughters that are currentyle attending CBU and another daughter that graduated like 2 years ago that I know.. so we all had lunch and it was a good time.

So I decided to put one of the passion CD’s and Sing to the King just came on. Paula, if you read this, you do a much better job on Sing to the King then Candi Pearson. I thought I would tell you that..

So speaking of Sing to the King, I heard that Trademark is coming back to camp, Tis this true? Is this only of speaking the truth? I hope it is.. It would be AWESOME!

I know in my last blog I didn’t make it clear on if I was or wasn’t going back to good Ol’ Ponderosa Pines, but I should tell you that I am coming back for one last summer… Unless I become director one day! hahaha That wouldn’t be a bad job! Aaron hook me up! haha.. This summer is going to be awesome.. I am really looking forward to it! I talk to my Dad about it and he was a little concerned about doing summer school at the same time.. Then I explained how it would all work and he felt better about it and also offered to pay for my classes, which is another burden off my shoulders, because I hate filling out loan applications… Nikki, we have to go to church every sunday, no if’s, and’s, or But’s.. we need to keep each other accountable on that…

oh, since I am already typing on my journal. Aaron! I may make an appereance next weekend, probably on saturday. Is that cool? I may bring up one of my buddies that is the Interm Youth Pastor accross the street. We were talking about summer camps and I mentioned Pondo and I told him that I would be visiting next weekend, so he may join me to check it out.

Alright, I’m out.. Peace

What an awesome day!

So today was amazing… I got up ten minutes after my 8 o’clock class started and get dressed in 10 mins to go to it. E-business fundimentals blows and I don’t like that class at all.. but it went short today and we did group work.. So at 9:30 my next class started and that class blows my mind. It’s Marriage and the family, and the Christian Community.. The first couple of days in that class, I never wanted to get married or pursue a realationship.. But after he explained a lot through the last couple of classes, it is starting to make sense.

After class I went to work and didn’t do a whole lot, because I didn’t feel like work and my boss really didn’t give me anything to do.. so I took a lunch break! and saw Aaron LeBrun and chatted with him for a bit and had lunch with the enfamous Nikki Howell! Then went back to work for like an hour..

After work, met up with Nikki and Aaron. Experienced one of the most funniest things.. Nikki was taking down one of the signs and it smacked he stright in the nose.At first I was scared and thought she broke her nose.. but them she started laughing..and so did everyone outside. after that incident, We put the stuff in the 4-runner and Nikki left for class and Aaron and I went to Wandas to talk about…….. THIS SUMMER!!!!…. yeah to make that short.. Aaron has a way od manipulating people into coming back! hahaj/k.. but nikki and I seriously think that Aaron has planted a chip in us and he holds the controls to it.. So when he asks about camp, we just say yes imeddiatly…haha but anyways.. Nikki came back from class and we all went to Islands and all pretty much had the same thing.. Amazing people think alike!…We talked about camp so more and headed off to get some coffee after our early dinner.. saw Christine Working at starbucks and then we had to leave cuz Kyle had a meeting to go to … So we said our good byes and hopefully I get to see all them soon!

I went to my meeting with my Malawi team and today we had to share out testimonies, very very short testimonies… I like sharing testimonies because you learn so much from everyone and they aren’t so surface anymore, you actually know some stuff about them! Well it got to my turn and I don’t know what it is, but I can’t make my testimmony short and so I had to make myself shut up.. I felt bad when I was done because I made my Leader cry.. I felt bad… But then I found out that her son has been through some similar stuff and he hasn’t quite been the same.. He doesn’t go to church and he blames God for a lot of stuff.. So yeah… That was just about all of our meeting…So then I walked out of the meeting with Melanie and talked about how she should really consider applying for ponderosa pines and that I highly recomend that she apply.. she would make an awesome counselor.. speaking of applying,… Aaron I talk to 2 people tonight that may be interested, so if you can send me some applications that would be awesome.. they are both really awesome people (1 guy and 1 girl)… Alright That was my awesome day.. It was so much fun.. but it is 12:15am now and I have to get up early to study for a bio test.. so peace!

To start off, the weekly weigh in for this week is…. 245. I cheated a lot this week, but worked out more.. so in 3 weeks I have lost 15 pounds..

This week I have been thinking about Ponderosa Pines a lot and all the staff from the previous year.. I think this all started when I remembered that Nikki goes to school here and I haven’t seen her in a week or so.. Nikki, if you read this, lets hang out sometime this week or next week.. aight….well anyways.. Pondo has been on my mind a lot.. I miss the place a lot.. It’s like my 2nd home or my vacation home haha (since it is where I spend the summer).. I have been thinking about working there this summer (again! 3rd year in a row, am I considered a lifer yet?) and It sound fun and good, but then I start thinking about the money I owe my savings for the computor i bought and then I think about how I woudn’t have to pay rent or food, so I would be saving there and it is really close to church, so I could deffinatly go to church every sunday! yeah, I just don’t know!

I’m so excited that Aaron is coming tomorrow! It’s going to be so awesome.. Aaron, I have been recruiting a little and I am going to talk about summer and stuff with my guys tonight during bible study , and throw in Pondo’s name a couple of times to see what they think.. I have some pretty solid guys..

So if I don’t go back to Ponderosa Pines, I found a buddy to live with up in Big Bear. Two of my Buddies live up there and one is moving out for the summer to work at Pine Summit, so my other buddy is looking for a roommate for the summer and I said that I MAY be interested.. It’s cheap rent and it is close to Ponderosa Pines. so that way I could drive down to CBU once a week (all of CBU’s summer school is one class a week at nights) for summer school and have a job (maybe starbucks) and go to ponderosa when I am not working or taking the class… But this is all in the air right now..

Oh, God is so good.. Chapel sucked today, but when I got back from chapel, I got a chance to check my e-mail and got an e-mail stating that an anonymous donor gave me $500 for my ISP trip this summer.. That is amazing! Man God is so good.. I stress out about all that raising money stuff, I know I shouldn’t but I do…Yeah, it’s dinner time and I am starving, so.. I hope everyone is doing good and I love you all.. Later

Heather… I think your funny!

Ok, you may not want to read this for sometime, because this might become my diet journal.. yes you heard that right, Kyle Smith is on a diet! So I started about 2 weeks and 3 days ago.. I wouldn’t really call it a diet, More of cutting carbs and all the yummy deserts! So about 2 weeks about a weighed myself and about killied myself (kyle and scales don’t get along), I weighed 260 lbs.. Yeah I couldn’t believe it either… So after 2 weeks of cutting carbs and actually going to the gym (and starting back an old hobbie of golfing), I now weigh 248.. Not bad 12 pounds in 2 weeks…

This summer has been consuming my mind! I don’t know what I am going to do! I know I need to take atleast a class this summer and I need to make some money and find a place to live.. I just don’t know… I thought about going back to Ponderosa Pines, but that means I wouldn’t be able to take classes and I kind of need some more money to pay myself back for the laptop I bought…But on the other hand, it wouldn’t be bad going back there and it is close to imanuel, which I may start getting involved there pretty soon.. I also thought about living in Riverside, but I don’t even know where to start at looking for an apt or room to rent and finding a decent job to pay all that stuff.. I do know that I am going to Malawi may 10 to like june 1st.. Oh and moving back to brawley is not a choice.. I will not submite myself to 120 degree weather and lving with the family…. any ideas anyone?

So I got out of the shower about 5 mins before my class started and said, “ahh, I don’t need to go”, I feel bad now, I should have gone.. It’s one of my favorite classes this semester too.. Small Bussiness Management, I know what you probably thinking, “your favorite?”… Yeah I like the class, we are learning about Entrepenuership right now and it is really interesting.. Enough of that.. Classes are really fun this semester.. except e-bussiness fundimenntal.. That class bites! I think it’s because I have the same prof. from my Statistics class and if yo have read my blog in the past.. I don’t like the guy.. I have convinced myself that he really doesn’t know what he is teaching.. So in that class (since the class is heald in a computor lab) I look at real estate on e-bay most of the time.. And then I imagine my prof. dancing around the class singing like a virgin.. haha That always makes me laugh, because then I think about this summer when heather and I had to scoop ice cream (mainly because we were the ugly fat kids that couldn’t hula).. Oh the fun times!

Ok, I have leadership class in about 20 mins and I have to get dressed so see ya later

Back to school, Back to school..Teaching my daddy I’m not a fool…

Oh how nice it is to be back in Riverside… Well, back at school… I made everything sound so good on my last journal about home, which everything was.. Parents are awesome, sister is pleasently pregnant with a girl, Grandma is still kicking and one of the most Godly women I know, and Kevin is, well Kevin… Home is definatly not the way it was when I was living there.. It’s weird how people change so fast and me being one.. I look at myself and I don’t like what I see, I know I can be better, I know God has better things for me, then this slump I am in, but why is it so hard to take that first step? Tuesday and Thursday I spent almost half of both days in complete silence, listening to peoples prayers, scripture reading and just listening to what God had to say. It is clear to me that he was saying take the first step, I promise I will be there with you, you aren’t alone.. But why is it so hard?

My mom had a talk with my bro and I about our testimonies and who we are portraying… I know she ment good through it, but she kind of made me sound like a alcoholic, and a really bad kid.. I know why she had this talk, because I was going to Big Bear with my bro and his friends.. I so bad wanted to rub it in her face that I her son Kyle didn’t get drunk, didn’t drink, and took care of his twin brother (picking him up from the bars and stuff). Speaking of my bro, that boy needs some prayer.. I don’t know why he would live the life he is now, I mean my parents did a good job raising us, I could point out some things that they could of done better, but over all they were some awesome parents! I wonder what goes on in Kevins mind, I wonder what makes him act the way he does and do the things he does… I hope and pray that he gets out of the rut he is in.

Meagan came back to school on thursday and she is still the awesome girl that I know..All that I got to say is, why her? have I fallen head over heals for a girl that I think I can’t have. Why can’t I have her? Could I? I don’t think I can. I know I don’t think highly of myself, maybe that is just it. I want to date that girl, but I know right now isn’t the right time. I know God is telling me to get right with him before I journey into a realationship.

Welp thats all I have to say fpr now.. There was a hour break between I wrote this and how I feel now.. Man I am really starting to think I am Bi-polar or something.. Well, I’m going to get some grub and pick up the Famous Nikki Howell from the airport.. later